Thursday, April 21, 2005
so much for enlightenment
i always felt that i will be awoken from my spiritual hibenationby a call from God, a burning-bush type of awakening. i had the feeling that i'm goin to get it soon. well, i got my call from the BIG BOSS sooner than i thought... -sans the big bang welcome. you see, i got my wake up call one unusually ordinary day (pardon the oxymoron). it was pretty much ordinary. the great ayala skies were still gray and the hordes of people swarming to the highrises along the avenue are still marked by insousance and oblivion to their surroundings. there's the corporate/executive people dressed in drab gray and balck suits, leather pumps or loafers and black handbags or attache cases. there's the call center people - the fashionista group, fashion followers and fashion rebels alike. then there's the in-betweens. this is the group where most people are lumped together: people who are neither fashion addictied nor fashion intolerant-,just plain people.
this was just the perfect setting for a perect conversation about GOD. i had a lot of questions about my religion and also about my spirituality and beliefs. i'm not going to fill this blog with a litany of questions (some may be blasphemous... oh forgive my poor confused soul).
as my friend-officemate-roommate and i are trying to get ourselves across the great buendia avenue, a question so disturbing just popped into my head that i didn't want to say it but i had to. i just had to ask and out of nowhere the question just took off my lips like a missile bomb launched without a particular target.
the answer came the same way. the missile bomb turned to the reverse direction and went BAM! straight to me. the answer came with a polluted blow from the bowels of a passing bus. BAM! straight to my face....
there you go... my enlightenment brought to me in a single sentence served with the aroma of the indifference of man.
Posted at 04:27 am by dame_blanche
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Wednesday, February 23, 2005
this too shall pass..... umm...when?
my christian friend once told me that if trust God with my problems i wouldn't have to worry about them. great! i think i've used that line to comfort my friends. it sounds good, right?
well anyway, i tried to chant it for most of my free time so that i can imbibe its essence. but some things are easier said than done.
for the past fleeting months of my life, i've been a lost soul ironically anchored to my monolith of a religion. i was catholic, if you must know. i've had questions about my religion and about my faith. i was thinking, why do i try to do every right thing and yet it's a burden to me. if i'm doing the right thing, i should be feeling, well, light and free....NOT!
maybe this is just a phase that i have to go through to get to spiritual maturity. this too shall pass... but when?
i guess i just have to wait and see.....
Posted at 08:36 am by dame_blanche
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Wednesday, January 12, 2005
don't tell me you don't have any thought interesting enough to write here? hay nako. ang tamad mag-blog. :)
Posted at 05:51 am by http://ves-le-artiste.blogdrive.com
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